Monday, July 30, 2007
i wonder y ppl nowades r so much busybody...
to ppl out dere..
i wud like to advise u ppl..whoever u r n whatever u r..
i m sum1 who u can talk to k..
if u ppl talk to me indirectly n anonymously...it'll onli make me piss off more..
honestly speaking..
im not a patience person...
i can b nice if u talk to me directly straight on my face..
rather den being anonymous..
Sunday, July 29, 2007
hmm..yan was talking to me at msn..
n he tell me sthg..
but shud i believe him..?
it seems dat he wants to b wit me bac..
but my mom was saying..he's only aft ur body..dun go for dis kind of guy la..
haiz..
hw..???i myself r unsure of my relationship wit FIRDAUS..
but den nw YAN appear bac n it reali is making me stress...
YAN seems to want me to get bac to him..but he asked me to CHANGE..!!haiz..if he ask me to change my point of view of e frenster comment thg..i reali cant promise him..
well..
wad surprise me is dat..up till nw he still call me B..(Baby)
confused...stress..!!
haiz..its been daes since we didnt contact or msg each other..
den juz nw..he actuali appear at my werkplace..
its sat nite..n he usually has his BIKE MEETING dere every sat nite..
he came to me..n i gv him a face showing dat i am reali pissed off wit him...
BUT..!!
it seems dat he doesnt seems to hv anithg wrg..
i was standing right infront of him n was staring at him..
but he can still smile n wink his eye at me..
we kept ourselve silent..till he said "u go hm first lar..later i reached hm i called u..im not feeling well larh..im hving dizziness.."
den i suspect thgs oreadi..i asked him.."did u DRINK..??!"
n he NODDED his head..!!
i cant stand it..im reali upset up till nw..
im still thinking whether still wants to carry on wit him or juz kept myself silent for awhile or ....haiz...i dunn larh..
well..he said he'll b calling me later wen he reached hm..
lets wait n c...if he reali call me or not..!!
i wanted to talk a lot wit him..since i cant talk to him juz nw..!!
bcoz he's DRUNK..!!
IM TERRIBLY SAD N UPSET N MAD..!!! ='(
Saturday, July 28, 2007
soo tired laa..
guez wad..i went hm..n suddenly a guy wich i actuali knew him but didnt reali talk to approach me n asked me sthg..
WTH larh..
he wanted to send me hm..well i dun mind..den he actuali wanted to hangout wit me and asked me to hv supper wit him..
i sae i cant..its late oreadi..
he keep wanting to lepak wit him..he press e storey 10 in e lift n i press storey 2..
luckily i managed to escape frm him larh.,.
dis guy is CRAZY..!!
i said bye to him..n he take my hand to salam..
n wanted to hug me n MAYB more...!!!
WTF larh...
he tink im stupid izit..!!
den i quickly let go of my hand frm his..
Y..y..y....???!!!
y muz all e guys take advantage of me..??!!
i dun get it larh..
i didnt do anitink wrg to u ppl wad..y muz u guys do dis to me..
n nw i hv a strong feeling dat even my guy is doing e same thg..
he doesnt even bother to kol or msg me..
he is nw IGNORING me..!!!!!!!
im so SAD..i feel lyke killing myself nw..!!
Thursday, July 26, 2007
during lesson..sleepy..!!
dis is all e STUPID MEDICINE laa..
medicine cause drowsiness..!!
soo sleepy,didnt get enuf sleep,den cause me to hv a headache..
den got stomachache...haiz...
all in one sia..!!
feel lyke hitting my head on e wall larh..!!
doesnt feel lyke goin to skool..but i hv to..got so many X for dis module oreadi..haiz..i wonder if i can pass dis yr or not..
im so stress laa...
no one understand hw i feel..
im worried of soo many stuffs..!!
1)PoOr Results..
-got 2 F oreadi for my UT..
-and so many X oreadi larh..esp maths & enterprise..
2)My illness
-shall keep dis a SECRET..
3)My pOoR rElAtIoNsHip..
-he still didnt call or msg me
-(i think wad my god bro sae is rite..)
*dun blame me..!! i oreadi try to b optimistic.. given him chances..keep calling him n msg him but doesnt want to reply or pick up my call..*
haiz..i want to go somewhre to keep myself calm n relax..like e BEACH..!!
wich is my fav hangout..but too bz wit work n skool...!!
AaaaRrRrGGGgGgGgHhHHhH.....................!!!!!!!!
SoO craMMed my head..!!
i think e only thing to stop it juz to go n SLEEP..!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
hey bitch..!!
cant u juz mind ur own business n get out of my lyfe n stop tinking dat ure teachers pet okae..!!
wadeva la..even if ure a teacher's pet..,i dun even gv a damn abt it okae..!!
juz dat plz MIND UR OWN BUSINESS...
im gving u a warning arh ehk..!!
if u ever tried to b kpo in my lyfe n bad mouth abt me to others again..!!
u better watch out..dun let me catch u again..
or else my hands will reached out to dat face of urs..!!
understood BITCH..??!!
WTF LAA...
cant u juz take care of ur lyfe n ur KENTAL BF in e class..!!
i noe laa dat ure trying to b teachers pet n get straight As rite..??den show off at ur msn nick saying "STRAIGHT As....A,A,A,A,A......"so wad..??!!
i dun even care laa...
C..i dun even bother bout ur lyfe..y shud u rite..?!!
ure such a BITCH LAA..!!
wait till i caught u by myself..
dis is all e info i get frm my frens wen i didnt cum to class yesterdae..
so dis is wad u ppl hv been doinn izit?
hving fun gossiping abt others izit?!!
IM WATCHING U EVERY SEC..BITCH....!!!
haiz...so bored n stress laa...
but aft toking to my fren >>Huz..
well...i did feel relieved a bit la..A BIT ONLI..
but i dunno y e feeling of UNCERTAINTY is alwaes dere..
GOD plz help me...
y izit dat whenever im hving a relationship wit sum1..i juz cant b optimistic la...
want to b optimistic also difficult...alwaes pessimistic..
izit bcoz i hv all e bad xperience i've went thru..?
i juz dun noe wad is wrg wit me....
y izit sO hard to trust each guy hu appear in my lyfe..?!!
my god bro did sae dis to me..
"u hv a nice figure body wich may b e reason y most of e guys r aft u.."
"u shud find e right one..hu reali wants to b wit u n not for ur body.."
n nw im worried..
coz most of e ppl advise me n sae dat "mat motor" (guys wit bike)
cannot b trusted..they were saying dat these guys like to play ard wit gerls...
dis make me reali worried laa...
n even make me worried wen he didnt even bothered to kol or msg me..
haiz..okie..he hv a reason for dat..i undastand..
hope dis wkend i werk..he will cum to my werkplace...
i miz him dat bad larh...
Monday, July 16, 2007
went to werk..at 3..but went out frm my hse at 2.15 to meet him..
we ride e bike to the carpark of blk 600+ n chat awhile...
he send me back to werk at 3 n i reached werk at 3.15...
b4 leaving he actuali show me his IC..hehe..
n Oso asked me for a kiss..at e roadside..
luckily my boss wasnt ard laa...or else...
hehe...
he werk at 5pm..
but wen i was werkin..he actuali came by my wrkplace at 7..aft i msg him to be careful wen riding his bike coz it was raining heavily.
den suddenly..
he appeared at 7.05 at my werkplace..
n i asked him..he sae..he was sleeping aft meeting me n woke up late...
b4 he went to werk..he actuali asked me for a kiss...
n i myself was shocked to do dat..coz IT WAS AT E CASHIER LAA...n i still hv e guts to do dat..
hmm..juz hope dat my boss didnt see e camera or else....hehehe...
goin hm time...11pm..
i asked my dad to pick me up..
shudnt hv asked him..!!
i didnt noe dat he was picking me up...!! haiz..wad a waste...=[
nvm laa....
n nw in e classrm...
im MISSING him badly laa...haiz...
i knew sum1 frm my werkplace...
e story begins lyke dis..
i was yelling to one of e uncle hu werk dere coz e cigarette log is not telly..
den suddenly sum1 appear at e side n sae..."elek la u.."
n i smile at him..
he was taking e gulp drink n i went to e office n he stopped me..
n we talk n he asked for my nO.
i stOod dere for a while n think.."shud i gv or shud i not"
coz i had enuf of guys...
but i juz gv him my nO.
n e dae aft 2mro...
he called me..
we tOk awhile n e nxt dae he came to my werkplace..
we meet under my block ..not exaactly under e block..by e roadside near my block..
we tOk awhile n left..coz i was exhausted n he had a RIDING meeting wit his cuzin n frens..
hmm..
i actuali told him not to go riding..n he put his hand on my face..n sae..dun wori lar sayang...i wont..
he called me at 2am+...
we tok till 3am...
haiz...got a lot to tok actuali...
sori i didnt update according to e date..was bz werking...
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
E first wrd dat will cum out frm my mouth is...>>>EeEeeWwWW....!!!!!!! WTF..!!
i felt so disgusted la each tyme i see dem 2gether..n worst..!! E nick on msn...SEEMS SO WRG LAR..EeE.....!!
haiz..
but u two hv sthg in cOmmoN laA...
wich is tOtally nOnsense!!
1st thg>>wanna act cute..
2nd thg>>step pandai..
3rd thg>>like to angkat2 e faci..!!
hmM...??
More...???
Later laa...wen i find Out more..i'll definitely write....
e other thg..
i dun nOe y i hv dis hatred feelings towards him..
daes n daes pass...e feeling grew MORE...
cant tell hu e person is laa...1 dae u'll nOe..
e other thg..
me n my x..yan..
bOth of us r still in cOntact..
BUt onli as frens...
i guez dats bez for us laa....
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
helloO ppl..
hmm..wanna nOe wad hpn 2dae..?
k..im late fOr skOol 2dae..
DAMNIT..!! miz my UT 2DAE..!! f**k laa..
haiz..
2dae ENTERPRISE module..haiz..my "fav" module laa...!! n osO "fav" faci u nOe..!! EeEwWw..!!
Hmm..anOther thg..
guez wad..HE actuali msg me at msn..i tOt HE will nOt msg me again aft we break up..but HE still msg me at msn..Im sOo hapi dat he still remember me..but still dissapOinted wen he saes dat "it is juz a comment"...............but in e end..he did sae "SORRY.."
i was bOth hapi n sad at dat moment..
i dunnO hw else tO xplain laa...
i tink better stOp here b4 it gOes wOrse..
n...i actuali MISSES him..... ="(
dun blame me..!! i myself dunnO y..even thOugh i nOe he's nOt reali e guy fOr me...
Friday, July 06, 2007
stop blaming me..!
stop saying "wat is wrg wit u b..??"
stop ur nonsense n crap..!!
stop ur acting..!!
stop ur EVERYTHG...!!
its clear nw..
its over k btw us..(05/07/07)
its ur fault k..damn SWEETTALKER..!!
thx for everythg laa...i knew dis will hpn..but i kip denying myself dat dis wont hpn..
im trying my bez to believe u coz at e first place.. i dun reali trust dat u r e oe for me..
but u made me believe dat ure e one..by saying dat u want ENGAGEMT btw us n MARRIED me..even though i hvnt met u..thank god for dat..
n actuali todae was supposed to b e meeting...n gv him e b'dae present wich is on e 02/07/07..
but it end up juz yesterdae..
nw i noe e true u...
thx to frenster..
ur trueself r reveal at laz..
hw cud u..
wen i reali trust u..
even though my fren sae "leave him..u dun noe him..hw can u b wit him.."
1 of my fren Huz "u seems to b desperate.."
im angry wen he said dat..but i juz dun care...i noe its my fault..for accepting him in e first place..haiz..
i shudnt hv gv myself a chance to love again......
=hurt=
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
yesterdae nite...
we bOth tOk at msn..
again we fOught...
im wOndering y we juz cant stOp quarrelling...
everytyme..!!
wen we msg..we fOught..
wen we tOk..we fOught..
wen we chat at msn..we Oso fOught..
i guez bOth Of us r juz nOt ready...
i brOke up wit him yesterdae..
n he didnt even bOther...
y...???
cOz i realized its been sO many tyme he wrOte at his nick abt him nOt being very sure of his Own relatiOnship..
n dis tyme i reali cant stand it..
he wrote dis at his nick.."IS SHE THE GAL I REALI WANNAB WIF??"
hu wudnt get pissed off..??tell me..!!
dat means he's trying to tell me wad..??!!
he's not reali serious in e relationship arh..??!!
dis is not e first tyme okae..!
my patience has its limit....
i asked him hu is he referring to..?
n he try to change e topic..den i tell him "not to change e topic n ans me..!"
n he saes it refer to me laa...
den i start questioning him..."wad r u trying to sae?u r telling me dat u r not serious wit me izit..???"
den he doesnt want to ans me..n instead saes "plz la b..dun gv me any more stress..i am oreadi stress wit my werk..n u r gving me stress oso..."
i got pissed off laa...
n saes..."OK..FINE..I WONT GV U ANY MORE STRESS FRM 2DAE ONWARDS...DUN WORIE...!!"
n i immediately log off frm my msn...
n now..i guez..
we're juz frens..??or enemy...???
STRESS.........!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
cuzin sister was planning to go to east coast wit her famili n her guy..wit his daughter n son..
we went dere ard 3+ to abt 4+ i guez...hv to wait till my cuz sis finished cooking..den we r set to go...
they went dere by cab..xcept for me n my cuz bro..we tOok bus 966..
reaching dere.....
i changed to my shorts n shirt..
den went to eat first...
ohya..
sis coOked bee hOon,fried chix,bread pudding...n macaroni cheese..(i dun lyke e laz one)
2 of her frens came oso..they bring 2 container of sandwic wit egg n cornbeef..
den..
went toe sea n sit at e sand..
moving on to e sea...aft my cuz bro called me to join in..
we played in water..n hw stupid i am to hv wear a yellow shirt den can see e outline of my bra...
n my clumpsy cuz bro asked me to changed wit his black shirt n changed juz in e sea itself..!!
can u imagine dat?!
ahaha..but nvm..my aunt sae its not dat obvious...
so i didnt changed...
l8er we bathed..
gettin ready to go hm...
wen we finished bathing..,we prepared e stuff n packed..
my cuz sis had a tif wit her guy..n all e way hm they quarrelled..
i dunno laa..
its hard seeing them in a relationship....
i dunno myself hw....
haiz..
in e bus...
my uncle kept disturbing me..
msging me frm e bac of the bus...
like as if we cudnt tok lyke dat...
lol..but it was fun...
had LAUGHTER in e bus..help cheer my cuz sis......=p
reached hm ard 12am...
den changed..
n...ZzZzZzZ.......
ps:tOo bad we forgot to take pix..sOo sOorie ...
Who's The Bitch?
Noorazillah Aziman
Create Your Badge
Ms LaLaLiCious
Single
18/November/1989
Republic Polytechnic
Diploma In New Media
Part-Time Film-Maker
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